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It's been a while since my last post, thing are getting better now, new life, new challenges appears, and lots of money lying around the corner if i may add.

Mary Kay has changed my life, specifically my financial status, now I can buy whatever I want except cell phones… (I need to sell more items you know) and have dates on scheduled time without having problems with spending. As you may think that I’m bragging, well hold your horses man but I’m not, this is the truth, Mary Kay has changed my life, my own business, my dream come true.

Mary Kay said; “It is important for you to have a goal. You simply can’t get there if you don’t know where you are going! Begin to build in your mind a dream. Then write it down and make your goal realistic. Aim high enough that you will have to stretch your ability and your potential to reach it.” - So true!

The Mary Kay Company

Mary Kay Inc. was created from one woman's desire to enrich women's lives. She began by offering quality products to enhance a woman's image and a perfect business opportunity to help women earn extra money, enjoy more flexibility and grow as independent business owners. The result is a company that, more than 40 years later, still embodies the core philosophies of its founder: to use the Golden Rule as a business guide and to help women live a balanced life by placing faith first, family second and career third.

The Mary Kay Products

All Mary Kay's skin care and cosmetics products are scientifically formulated and packaged using the latest technology. Because product quality and consumer safety are company priorities, more than $55 million has been invested in scientific research and development and engineering over the past five years

Mary Kay Inc. does not use animals in the testing of its products, and does not have such testing done by anyone else on its behalf. In fact, no one has conducted any product tests using animals for Mary Kay since 1989. Mary Kay actively sponsors development of alternative methods for testing cosmetic products which do not use animals.

Quality assurance is an ongoing process. Incoming packaging components are inspected before use, product samples are continually checked for microbiological purity, and staff and computerized systems continuously monitor production lines.

Research and Development at Mary Kay is staffed by a team of experts in cosmetics, dermatology, physiology, biochemistry, toxicology, microbiology, analytical chemistry, pharmacology, organic chemistry, process technology, package engineering and quality engineering.

And The Most Important Thing about the Mary Kay Products:

“We have a quality product – one that we can sell with complete honesty and integrity. A product that each of us uses daily so we know that it works. A product that our laboratories, filled with scientist and white-coated doctors, never cease to test for safety, purity and improvement. You can be assured that the product that we sell to our customers is at the top of the state of the Art Cosmetic industry. No finer product can be purchased at any price.”

Otanjubi Omedetou Gozaimasu [18th bday]

Walang paglagyan ang kaligayahan ko ngayon, im so happy, salamat sa greetings and all. and to my baby, salamat sa gift... ang ganda, [cyempre galing sayo].. ang sweet ng mga tao ngayon.. tsaka sa mga Ani-Ma kyoukai members tsaka ang Hiro's place okonomiyaki... DOmo Arigatou Gozaimasu...


[NOTE]
ANG SAYA KO~!!!!!!


chance ko na to say this


Domo arigatou otosan, okasan :p


tsaka


Tita tetet at Tito Joby pati na kay joette.


especially kay jayjay. kiiiiii~!!!!!!!!

Cosplay Cosplay Cosplay!!! picture loaded..

COSPLAY COSPLAY COSPLAY!!! sino icocosplay ko.. si Elena - A cheerful, positive-minded girl who likes to try out anything that looks fun. She has a strong will and is self-assertive. No one knows her true identity, and she avoids talking about her past. Elena accompanies Fazz on his journey to uncover the truth behind the Marselva.

or si

TiNN? -Fazz's childhood friend. A little spoiled because she was brought up in a wealthy family, but she is very serious about Fazz. She jokes around occasionally, but in most cases, she is just acting it. Lonely at heart, she wants to be accepted by others.(HOSHIGAMI: RUINING BLUE EARTH)

Confused momo on the loose. Pero may nahanap akong kawaii masydo na pic and it's little gohan..

another pic .. Bleach Cosplayers during the PSiCom Con... ang cute nila.. cute masydo ang nagcosplay kay Nanao-chan and NEmu!!! KAWAII!!!..

hahayyyy.. kalibog oie.. kinsa man jud akong icosplay.. si Elena or si Tinn... ????

Things i've learned

Sometimes, if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But most of the time, what you want and what you get are two different things: Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul. Sometimes, God sends pain so we can be stronger. Although we can can't have everything we want, we can want everything we have. That's life.

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's difficulties. We should learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won't be sunny, and when we find ourselves lost in the darkness and despair, remember -- It's only in the black of the night that we can see the stars, and those stars will lead us back home. So, we should not be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall. Because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing things that scare us the most. And be optimistic to all the things that surrounds you in your everyday life. That each and everyone of us, even the teenie-tinniest being living on this planet is loved by the one greater that anyone in the universe.

Another thing is, we don't look for love because it's lonely to be watching movies alone, because it's sad to eat meals on your own, because it's nice to cuddle up with someone on rainy days. We look for love because we want to be accepted, for the sloppy ways we dress, for the clumsy way we eat our meals, for bad hair days and for the simplicity in us. Love is an act of acceptance, that with all our imperfections, we are accepted and loved.

joey said to Dawson in Dawson's Creek; "I fell in love twice, first was with you, second was the person you became when you're already mine..."
^^sweet noh?

So Tired (Genki)

Why do i can't set things right?
I MUST I MUST I MUST~!!!!!

though i'm a bit nervous about some stuffs just lying around the corner.. yah.. a BIG one.. ahihihi.. well.. let's just say.. im happy about the output. All the inputs were great it makes me wanna cry, a tearjearker one!!!

Am i that weird?

hmmm... i just don't feel great today... i mean.. have you ever feel weird the whole day and you just don't know what it is or why? and how? ... i feel bad and i feel gloomy and i feel angry.. darn!!! it's like you feel like exploding the whole time whenever someone annoys you or ask you just a single question... and like you sometimes feel irritated. I get mad sometimes that i want to be alone in my room. You want to tell someone about something but as luck woud have it, you suddenly feel happy... THE FEELING IS SO WEIRD... yah.. really weird. T__T am i having mood swings or what? so glad, my mom bought me something to eat... a japanese corn with cheese and butter...GUTOM LANG DIAY.. ahihihihih (^^)v

LEO:

Do you feel as though there's something going on that you aren't being told about? Your paranoia might not be unfounded today. Go a little slower in your daily activities, and watch out for plotters -- there are people who are indeed planning something that they don't want you to know about. It could be as delightful as a party in your honor, or as unpleasant as a party you're not invited to! By the end of the day, you'll at least know whether you want to know what's up.

{btaw... lol... malapit na kadayawan... can't wait sa august!!!! hayaku hayaku hayaku!!!!!! must save some money... ala lang... if you know what i mean. HIMITSU!!!}

Imponderable Happiness

*sigh of relief and happiness.... you found me i found you... (bah!) that's it.. the proposal was flawless and a jaw dropping one.. (excited na nga si lola poy e, magpapakain pa). Hindi pa namin napag-uusapan kung kelan ang date ng wedding or ano pa man.. pero gusto ni lola poy.. sa january.. UWAI~~~!!!!!

It's been a while.. hmm.. recap mode. and meeting and in between it.

It's been a while, hmm... wala namang interesante ang nangyari, on hikki mode ako ngaun, it's been two weeks mula sa resignation day ko, nakakapagod e, and one of my main reason ay ang pagbaba ng sweldo. Anyway, sira ang pc ko and i need to buy some few parts for my beloved pc kaya my very affordable way na maka OL is through sun imessenger, it cost around .50 cents and every login you pay for as low as 2 pesos. Anyway, may katabi akong babae ngayon, nasa internet cafe ako ngayon, and grabe ang apog nang katabi kong to!!! she's watching .. uhmmm.. some ero vid.. TOINK!! yup.. ero vid... i even get the chance to took a glimpse [heller!!! glipmse lang po,just playing safe] and sa side note; nakita ko url ng tinitignan nyan.. a hentai site!! op chors.. a hentai site... uhmmm.. di masydong makita ang link e kasi malabo paningin ko... DO NOTE: hindi po ako on kinky mode..

hmm.. kahapon nasa meeting ako with the rest of AAP pipol, and wow!!! i really missed them a lot for some reasons like eating together sa okono or for now a new crave [mabo ramen tei] and as for the price.. a bit pricey but the taste... kyaaah~!!! very tasty!! worth all the money.. we've been talking about a lot of stuffs kahapon About anime at mga genre's nito.. well, it was one good meeting... nandun sila marcel, dichi, mei-mei, stephen, ira, alain, michael, mark, jayjay, daryl, tino, C2 then dumating sina mara, marie and haydara.. i was laughing all the time, then i finally feel hungry.. really hungry!!!!!.. harahetta... nag stop muna ako ng japanese class.. kasi half lang ang pina enroll ko. and yeah, im planning to take a one whole year of japanese studies.. then get a passport and a visa.. i really mean it!!! hai hai hai!!!! and for the near future... tumira dun with my fiancee..

Kani-kanina lang, i was with my bestbuds.. mira and philip.. nasa nccc mall and had so much fun, talk about anything under the sun and laugh about the arinola... hahahah!! yup.. arinola... and what's so funny naman with the arinola... well... sabi kasi ni philip while pretending to be a sales agent... " Hello ma'am, nilhin nyo na po ang arinolang to, marami po tong gamit, di lang sa ihi kundi 4 in 1 na.. pde mong gamiting pang one time na pang inom ng kape, gatas, juice o tubig" ang lakas ng tawa ko....!!!!! [mababaw lang po ang aking kaligayahan minsan] then nilibre nya kami sa dunkin donuts.. kyaahhh~!!! then before ako umalis bumili muna ako ng mais galore with butter and cheese... then tumawag si alain-kun sa cp.. then after that sakay na ako sa bus... well... looks like im blasting off again.. CIAO!!!!

People rarely even knew who we are

-My reaction from a friend's blog.

People around us rarely even knew who we are just by plainly seeing us for who we are and yet you get the judgments of each person basing from your personality and your physical appearance. Di naman siguro natin yun maiiwasan diba, pero on the same grounds dumarating sa point na sinisiraan kana behind your backs. I don’t get their point, tapos dumarating pa sa point na nangingialam na, then mali-maling impormasyon na ang ibinabalita sa mga kakilala nila, ganun ba talaga mentality nila I’m not insulting them or something pero in some case “ naka menos naman gud” [bleach lingo.. hehehe], wala ka namang ginagawa sa kanila ganun pa ibibigay nila sa iyo. Nakakasira rin kasi ng friendship ang ganyan e, you call him/her a friend e from what the other persons been doing ay sinisiraan kana. It’s true na they’re doing it for your own good pero nakakalala pa ng sitwasyon.

Hanggang dito na lang ako, baka sumobra ako.

Words

" Please, Come back to me."

" Going through a life without you is like Hell."

" I don't, Coz you make my life complete."

*sigh.. T__T so touching!!!

NEVER LET GO

Can you lay your life down so a stranger can live?
Can you take what you need but take less than you give?
Can you close every day without the glory and fame?
Could you hold your head high when no one knows your name?

That’s how legends are made, at least that’s what they say.

We say goodbye, but never let go
We live we die, cuz you can’t save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to
show that you’re the kinda man who
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go

Can you lose everything you ever had planned?
Can you sit down again, and play another hand?
Could you risk every thing, for the chance of being alone?
Under pressure find the grace, or would you come undone.

That’s how legends are made, at least that’s what they say

We say goodbye, but never let go
We live we die, cuz you can’t save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to
show that you’re the kinda man who
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go

Never let go
Never let go
Never let go

Gotta take every chance to
show that you’re the kinda man who
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go

We say goodbye, but never let go
We live we die, cuz you can’t save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to show
that you’re the kinda man who
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go Will never look back,
never look down and never let go

NEVER LET GO

this song really made me cry T__T while watching the movie THE GUARDIAN.
starring Kevin Costner and Ashton Kutcher.

I'm generally bored

bored.. that's it.. bored.

Recipe for a Healthy Relationship

I'd like to share something about relationship and how to make it stay healthy without so much effort from both parties.

First off, it is important to ask yourself what you consider a real relationship to be. You need to understand what your needs and desires are from another person, and what you are willing to give them. This way, you can see early in your first dates, if you wish to continue and work towards a future together, and if the other person feels the same of course (both sides count).
[So true, it's not like everyday you came across a person and find out you both love each other on a first glance or through physical appearance and like your willing to spend the rest of your life drooling over him/her, But you must feel the need of being loved and love by someone who also loves you.]

Once you have decided to have an official relationship, you both need to remember what brought the two of you together in the first place. For instance, what attracted you to each other both physically and emotionally? What do you admire about his or her personality? This will help not taking the other for granted, which can often happen after two people have been together for a long time. This does not mean the love is fading, but it does mean that there is lack of effort. People tend to get lazy after a while, because they feel comfortable and safe. This problem can be solved when both people are willing to make the time and effort.

Everyone is independent in their own beliefs and ideas about things, so never expect a person to always see things your way. However, it is important to have similar expectations out of a relationship, if you wish to avoid frequent arguments. While seeing each other on a daily basis seems wonderful and healthy to some people, others may feel smothered and need space to have some time alone. Or if sex is on the top of your list, but is not on your partners, you might want to consider that, unless you do not mind waiting or taking care of yourself once in a while…depending on how long, you have to wait!

Patience is one of the main keys to a healthy relationship. There are times when our partner will not respond in a way in which is pleasing to us, but this does not mean we have to take it so seriously or personally. Always slow down, take a deep breath and think of reasons why your partner may be acting a certain way. Assuming and jumping to conclusions is always an unhealthy step to take because it shows your partner that they are not entitled to act freely and they feel attacked, not to mention it shows that you automatically assume the worst of them. Give your partner some time and let them know that you will be there for them when they are ready to talk. No matter what the situation may be, patience is golden in a relationship, unless your partner never wants to discuss matters with you (which would mean you need counseling or talking things out while listening to both parties or leave the relationship). The key there is to talk to that person with an open mind and think about your relationship and the respect for each other's decision.

Honesty is also at the top of everyone’s list when it comes to what people want out of a relationship. A person needs to know that they can trust their mate because it builds a zone of safety and comfortableness around them. They need to know that they can at least rely on their loving partner to tell them the truth, no matter what. Being human means NOT being perfect, which means we will make mistakes. Now, we should not let that fact lead us to making mistakes we already know are wrong ahead of time. If your partner deliberately makes mistakes or you knowingly make mistakes, it shows that you or your partner lacks respect and care for the other. This is unhealthy for the relationship. What is healthy however, is realizing that the mistake you committed is a mistake. You or your partner need to know that what they did was wrong and they need to feel the sympathy for what they did. Once you or partner have realized this, you can then figure out a way of how you will confess your wrong doings to the other. The best way is to talk to him/her and settle things out before it could go on a wrong way and get things out of hand.

Being accepted is a requirement in all relationships. No one desires to be with someone who judges them and rejects them for who they are or certain traits of their personalities. That is the beauty of being individuals. We are entitled to our own decisions, hobbies, goals, etc. When some one truly loves you, they love the whole package you come in, which means the physical you, the emotional you and the dreams and hobbies that come along with you. The person you choose to be with should support your dreams and respect your hobbies and vice versa.

Kindness and thoughtfulness are both equally important in a healthy relationship. Your partner needs to be considerate of your feelings and treat you with care and kindness, as if you were a sweet delicate rose. He or she does not need to attend you like a babysitter, but should be there for you when you need him or her, or when you do not need them, but just because you want them. They should just want to be with you as well. The point of a relationship is not depending on each other for our self- health, but being a part of the others life. You should be responsible for your own happiness and esteem, not your partner.

So remember, a healthy relationship is when you and your partner can be yourselves, be honest with each other, be patient, accept one another, be kind and remembering to be thoughtful. With an open and caring relationship like this, your love is sure to grow and grow like beautiful trees do, because they receive the proper care from the sun and the rest of nature. Our partner is our sun and water, as we are to them. Together, you can keep your relationship happy and healthy.

My special vacation getaway

hmm.. yup so special.. wanna know why?
hmmm.. my lola owned a resort sa samal and it's a big one nakapunta na ako twice though naga stay lang ako sa isang resto were marami ang food at libre.. Though di mahilig masyado sa beach tong mga uncle ko so better stay inside the house ang drama nila, *sigh.. sabihin nyo na wala kayong plano itreat kami.. T_T *sigh.. ang malas nga naman oh kung may uncle ka na ubod ng kuripot.. baka maudlot pa ang pinakamimithi mong pangarap.. Plano ng uncle ko na isama ako next week sa cebu.. I hope so..

hmm... may early flight sila bukas.. di ako sama.. may work kasi ako.. T__T so mean!!!

I Shall be telling this with a Sigh

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

By: Robert Frost


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both;
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;


Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,



And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.



I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

One of my favorite poem from Robert frost way back in highschool, i really adore his works, a must read. Even his famous line were quite impressive, let me rephrased it.. WAY BEYOND IMPRESSIVE, though i also like Edgar Allan Poe and his detective crime stories, i loved them both!!! a real poet and an essayist. And speaking of Robert Frost, i have here some of his famous qoutes which i'd like to share with you guys, hope you like and please drop some comments.

-> "Half of the world is composed of people who have something to say and can't, and the other half who have something to say and keep on saying it." [my favorite]

-> "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on."

[hai hai hai!]

-> "I'm not confused. I'm just well mixed." [naigo ko]

I'm blogging not for the sake of having one but for telling people how lovely life is, that i valued each day of my life and it's worth telling for. Stories of which someday i'll tell my future kids and my future great grandchildren. [wow~!! tiguwang nako ana na panahuna, bungol-bungol na.] I'm feeling a bit tired, nothing special happened though for some reason i feel so special. OP CHORS!! malapit na b-day e. [You're thinking too much. teaser momo!!!]

ja matta!!!

[RANT: nothing .. maybe later.]

[RAVE: Day Off tomorrow~!!! and i'm so happy today.. wanna know why?]

Just Thinking...

For these past few months of wandering what could have been if i didn't stop thinking about that certain feeling of craving from a certain thing or perhaps a certain food? yup~!! i've been thinking about this food not a person, mind you. That food really gives me that kick the moment it slips right through my tongue. And of course one of those mouth dripping food i've been thinking and been wanting to dig my drooling face in is the MISO RAMEN, i just can't get enough of it~!! but it cost around 200 pesos T_T [ouch!]. Also i really wanted to buy "TENSHIN-DON", again, it cost around 200 pesos T___T. [ouch ouch] but it's worthed.

[JUST THINKING what could have been if i have more money than the usual?]
-> then i could buy two orders.. miso ramen and tenshin-don

[BEEN THINKING what if... ]
-> not-a-food-related-thought.

Good bye days / Sayonara no Hibi

At first i think it was better to wait a little and hold onto things you'll never know where it's taking you, but i was wrong. Those words (Kotoba) that left a scar in my heart will forever remain as the most unbearable pain that cuts through my brain. You'll never know how or when will it end and how it all started. All I know, is that after all those sleepless nights and all the crying has finally come to an end. There's only one person who knows what i've been through.

GOODBYE DAYS by Yui
romaji

Dakara ima ai ni yuku sou kimetan da
Poketto no kono kyoku wo kimi ni kikasetai
Sotto voryuumu wo agete tashikamete mita yo

Oh good-bye days
Ima kawaru ki ga suru
Kinou made ni so long
Kakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara
la la la la la (love)~With you

Katahou no iyafon wo kimi ni watasu
Yukkuri to nagarekomu kono shunkan

Umaku ai sete imasu ka?
Tama ni mayou kedo
Oh good-bye days
Ima kawarihajimeta mune no oku alright
Kakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara
la la la la la (love)~With you

Dekireba kanashii
omoi nante shitakunai
Demo yatte kuru desho?
Sono toki egao deYeah hello! My friend nante
sa Ieta nara ii noni...

Onaji uta wo kuchizusamu toki
Soba ni ite I wish
Kakko yokunai yasashisa ni aete yokatta yo

...Good-bye days

GOODBYE DAYS in ENGLISH

So I’ll go to you now, I’ve made up my mind
I want to play you the song in my pocket

I quietly turned up the volume to make sure

Oh good-bye days
I feel like things are changing now
So long yesterday and before
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
~With you

pass you one earphone
And in that moment, it plays slowly

am I loving you right? Sometimes I get confused

Oh good-bye days
Now what’s in my heart has begun to change, alright
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
~With you

I don’t want to have sad thoughts if I can help it
But they’re bound to come, right?
When they do, I’ll smile and say
Yeah hello! I hope I can call you
My friend...

When we sing the same song
Be by my side, I wish
I’m glad I found that clumsy tenderness

...Good-bye days

[Just too late to take some actions and too tired of telling how much it hurts.]

I feel loved and Love. random words

My heart is about to burst, It's been a while since i had this much fun. you love who you love, what's wrong with that?
If we were in love with each other, I't doesn't matter if people laugh at us. Direct all your feelings towards me, and smile like you always do. What so wrong about loving him when it feels so right?. I need you to be with me.

Gokusen 2

GOKUSEN 2 DRAMA SERIES CAST: MUST WATCH!! a tear-jerker jdorama

NAKAMA Yukie as YAMAGUCHI Kumiko

UTSUI Ken as KURODA Ryuuichiro

KANEKO Ken as ASAKURA Tetsu

UCHIYAMA Shinji as TATSUKAWA Minoru

WAKI Tomohiro as KUMA TERUO Kumai

NAMASE Katsuhisa as SAWATARI Goro
KAMENASHI Kazuya (KAT-TUN) as ODAGIRI Ryu

AKANISHI Jin (KAT-TUN) as YABUKI Hayato

HAYAMI Mokomichi as TSUCHIYA Hikaru

KOIKE Teppei as TAKEDA Keita

KOIDE Keisuke as HYUUGA Kosuke
SAKI Toshiya as INUZAKA Taichi

AZUMA Mikihisa as BABA Seiga

Otoha as HAKUCHO Hitomi

MOTO Fuyuki as KAMEYAMA Takashi

Magii as INOMATA Shinji

IKEDA Yukiko as WANIBUCHI Sayuri

INOUE Jun as KUROKAWA Ginji

ANAN Kenji as WAKAMATSU Kozo

TANIHARA Shosuke as KYUUJOU Takuma

For the record, pinaiyak talaga ako watching this show, ang sarap ulit-ulitin, salamat kay shoti at pinahiram niya sa akin cd niya.. Domo raigatou denis-kun.. hontou ni kawaii!!!!!!!!!

Japanese Classes

weeeeeee~!!!! one week and 5 days to go.. Jap class ko na, weeee~!!! can't wait to introduce myself in japanese and speak japanese for real. kyaaa~!!!.... GO MOMO!!! you can do IT!!!.

[cheering for myself]

[sad for some reason]

After series of working...

Work, a physical or mental effort or activity directed toward the production or accomplishment of something or a trade, profession, or other means of livelihood. Work Work Work, I’ve been so uber busy since January for my main goal is to save money for my tuition fees. I have worked for about 7 months now, and for seven months I’m telling you this, I’ve been through a LOT, and it keeps getting worse. Worse, from the fact that you have to deal with these meddling kids everyday that were about to throw you off the hook. Oh my, it’s really hard dealing with them, T_T if it wasn’t for them I wouldn’t be quitting my job. Quitting??? ME??? QUITTING??? Yup, you’ve heard it, and I really mean it. I’M QUITTING MY JOB.

I’m already done understanding these narrow minded people, rather crab mantled people, well, not all. Just those butt head kids. Well, for the record, a few of them stole eight pieces of headphones, a series of confrontations, not paying enough, and last but not the least, insulting your dignity. Now, isn’t that really annoying to have them by your side 24 hours and 7 days a week. GOD! Have they left their manners outside the streets? Or does their school teach them to be like that? Or does their parents even know what their doing? Such unethical actions and poor parents, pasalamat sila at pina blater lang sila ng uncle ko, and to think nakatanggap sila ng pagkahaba-habang sermon courtesy of my dad and my uncle, tapos hanggang ngayon ganun pa rin sila. HANGIN BA LAMAN NG MGA UTAK NILA AT KAHIT KONTING BAGAY DI MAN LANG NILA MAITATAK SA KANILANG KOKOTE?.

Nakakahiya na nga yung alam nila na sila pa ang nag nakaw pero hanggang ngayon ganun pa rin sila. Di ko rin maintindihan ang uncle ko kung bakit di pa niya pinakulong ang mga batang yun, Sana man lang kinausap niya mga magulang ng mga batang yon para matauhan at maturuan ng leksyon. Or better yet, kung wala siguro akong pakialam sa mga buhay ng batang to, baka mapakiusapan kong ipapatay sila sa DDS kasi totally addict rin tong mga to. Pero masama yun, at wala na akong magawa, nangyari na e. Pangalawa, may internet café bang napakainit, isipin nyo na lang ang ibinubugang mainit na hangin na nagmumula sa computer, ang medyong maamoy na costumer, dagdag pa ang di gumaganang aircon na syang naging dahilan ng ala global warming sa pinagtatrabahuan ko na sya ring naging dahilan ng paglabas ng kung anu-anong uri sakit meron ako ngayon.

Hindi ko naman sinasabi na hindi ko mahal ang trabahong ito, cyempre mahal ko, ang kaso lang di ko naman kailangan pahirapan pa ang sarili ko nang matagal kong alam kong inaargabyado na ako sa trabahong ito, di naman ako mapili, ang sa akin lang makuha naman nilang rumespeto gaya ng pag respeto ko sa kanila as a costumer.

Sunday na pala ngayon?

Akala ko talaga friday ngayon so i had to do all those stuffs kanina like prepare prepare and prepare kasi naisip ko rin na saturday bukas... Lukaret na ata ako, kung anu-ano na ang pumapasok sa isipin ko, kulang kasi sa tulog e. Buti na lang, may gamot na laging umaaalalay sa akin even though di ko alam kung ano ang sakit ko. Umalis ako ng bahay mga 9am then hanggang ngayon nasa trabaho pa rin ako,nakaharap sa pc.

Tsaka off ko ngayon!!! since ngayon na alam kong sunday talaga ngayon, kailangan kong magsimba kasama pamilya ko or my mom, or yung kapatid ko, then dadaan ako sa bahay ng pinsan ko para kukunin ko yung laptop ng uncle ko, then pupunta ng g-mall para bumili ng japanese corn!! nasasarapan talaga ako tsaka ang bango!!! may butter at cheese, ang oumunta ng memorial to visit my dearest lolo and lola.. (miss ko na kayo)

hanggang dito na lang muna, medyo kailangan ko munang makapagpahinga para mamaya, mahirap na aantukin sa pagsamba...

RAMEN!!! and some other Japanese stuffs.

HALF TIME

APRIL 12, 2007, thursday, 12pm, nasa taxi pa ako habang tinatawagan ako ni jayjay sa cellphone ni shoti, nagmamadali kong sinagot ang tawag, sa mga oras na yun, nasa harapan na ako ng ateneo, traffic kasi e, nag re-route pa kasi sa dahilang nasira ang bankerohan bridge. Unang mukhang sumambulat sa akin ay ang mukha ni benjie na nakaupo sa gazebo kasama si haydara, slow motion kong nilakad papunta kina haydara at dali-dali kong hinagkan siya, then may boses na tumawag sa may bandang kaliwa ko. Boses ni jayjay, then pinuntahan ko agad sila, shock na shock si shoti sa haircut ko, (sino ba namang hindi ano!), then na meet ko si anito/kimberly, isang fellow anime afficionado rin, natatawa nga ako sa mga sinasabi ni shoti e... "momo.. JAPANESE AIR!!!" habang pinapakita ang isang bagay na may lamang hangin na matatagpuan sa mga boxes para i-fill ang space ng lalagyan. Sa mga oras na yun wala pa si rhet, so di na nakakapagtaka...

Off we go papuntang ramen tei (tama ba jay?) malapit sa venue, sakay ng taxi habang pinag-uusapan namin si teppei. pagkapasok palang namin sa loob, bumungad na sa amin ang mga negosyanteng Hapon na kumakain ng ramen kasama ng may-ari ng kakainan namin, umupo kami sa likuran nila, may lumapit sa amin na babae na binigyan kami ng menu at kinuha mga orders namin, lahat kami umorder ng shoyu ramen, habang silang dalawa ni shoti at anito umorder ng gyoza, kami ni anito mango juice at nakalimutan ko yung drinks na inorder ni shoti. Tumatawa kaming pinag-uusapan ang "Fun with Akatsuki" (dapat manood ka!! nakakatawa sobra! ewan ko na ka lang sayo kung di ka makarelate), habang si shoti gustong gustong kausapin ang may-ari ngunit nahihiya pa, then after some few minutes, dumating na order namin, and it's to eat!! wee~!!! ang sarapa sarap.. sa kalagit-naan pa lang ng topic namin, biglang nag ring ang telepono ni shoti, tumatawag pala si rhet, sabi ni shoti " I am not gonna answer it" then sumang-ayon rin kaming dalawa ni anito, then walang choice si jayjay, so xa na yung sumagot, nagtatanong si rhet kung saan na raw kami, kasi kakagising lang daw niya.. *sigh.. haaaaaay, naku rhet..

Fast Forward.. at last.. patapos na kaming kumain ng ramen at gyoza ng biglang dumating si rhet ala grand entrance, ahehehe.. so sa mga oras na yun, ubos na ramen namin, lumapit na naman yung babae sa amin to take rhet's order, same rin pala sa amin, yung shoyu ramen din yung inorder nya. Then we talked and talked and laugh a lot dun sa ramen-tei.. Very hospitable yung may-ari ng restaurant at maalaga sa costumer, then nagbayad na kami halos malaki-laki rin ang binayad namin, kasi yung shoyu ramen cost around 130pesos then yung gyoza 80pesos then yung drinks mga 35pesos... after some few minutes, nagpalipas muna kami ng ilang oras, then pinag-usapan namin ni rhet yung napagplanuhan namin na maghanap ng trabaho at ako naman maghahanap ng mapapasukang paaralan. Before kami umalis sa ramen-tei.. nagpasalamat muna kami, last akong lumabas e, pero bago ako lumbas dapat magpasalamat ka muna, i bow sa may-ari then thank him for the delicious meal, take note, in japanese pa, kyaaaa, never really thought na kakausapin nya ako in japanese, then he asked kung hapon ba raw ako, ang sabi ko naman half-japanese at half filipino then palabas na ako, bow pa rin ng bow, sakit sa likod infairness... then shoti got jealous.. ahihihihih.. kasi nakausap ko yung may ari, alam ko namang gustong gusto niya kausapin yung may-ari e, di nya lang nagawa.

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i despise these kind of people... so immature yet so unethical. MIND YOUR ATTITUDE!! work on it! and i how i wished someday you'll get a chance to meet someone who's better than you. And i hope you won't get humiliated.

GOODLUCK!

shit do happens

NOTE: INIT UG ULO ANG AUTHOR:

Ambot!!! sakit kaayo ba.. sakit na jud.. sakit na kaayo akong lalamunan, makalagot pud nang cge ug pangutana tapos kabalo na gani na naay sakit ang tao pangutan-on pa jud ta.. sus oie!! common sense na lang gud gamita ang sintido komon. kung dili mu-on ang pc, di pinduta ang ON tiguwang naman unta.. lisod bana spellingon na kasayon ra ana. Naa pud nang bungol na tao, makabwisit lang, gipadak-an na gani ang tingog nimo, nang hubag na ang tonsil nimo, BUNGOL ra gihapon, UNSA MANA!!! gwapa ra ba unta. . . BWISIT PUD NANG PABUNGOL BUNGOL!!! BWISIT ambot na lang!!! kaamayo na lang nimo duklon no. Tapos kanang kalit kalit lang ug kasuko na wala tay gihimo na dautan, BUANG cguro ka!!! ayaw pang damay damay kay wala baya ka gihilabtan, basi ka!!! ka lami na la ng jud mag wild... @#$%^&*())))*&%^&&^%#$%^#$#@$@$%#^%$*&%^*&^)(*)(&*(^E$$%#$@$@%$^&%*^*^*^O^&(*^*&%^$%#$#

Why are you acting so strange?

True. I've been acting so strange lately, creating more conflicts than ever. Also you. I dunno. maybe, things are bound to change for the both of us and i hope it's for the better.

I feel pain, yes.. i do feel pain.

A frantic drive back to civilization makes my stomach churn a bit that makes me wants to vomit every time we made a quick pit stop down the terminal. Walking halfway the hallway of Davao Medical Hospital gives me the horror as I see so many in-line patients waiting for their turn to be checked by some doctors. As for me, I’m feeling a bit nauseated by the smell of some spilled like medicine. I played through my mom’s mobile phone, to let the boredom passed me as I was waiting for my turn. After some few hours of deadly waiting, my name was called and I entered a room full of patients to be checked for dialysis, some were ready for the operation for his/her goiter others came from different barrios and cities just to get their free cheap check-up for their illnesses.

Then the nurse asked me to roll up my sleeves to check my blood pressure, it was 100/60, normal. Then fast forward, I felt so much pain as the doctor checked my eyes for crystal like dots present in both eyes and had it examined for some 2 hours of deadly pain. The doctor had inserted a small lens-like stethoscope with a small gel on both eyes. It was really painful, my tears were gushing straight on my eyes as the doctor continued to check up on it.

I was really damn crying!!! [sakit kaya!!! Ikaw daw be, murag gilugit imong mata, laliman ka ana!!!]

I Feel so Sick

I really feel sick today, I always puke every time I smell something bad and this has been going on for some couple of weeks. OH my! There must be something happening inside of me, and damn I had a couple of small like patches at my back it’s some sort of like in pinkish color, a bit itchy .. damn itchy!! And I also had this eating disorder [bulimic, is that right term, yung sakit?] making me puke every after drinking water also delays my period or have no period at all. And I also had this mild cough. And sometimes, i feel so dizzy. Someone help me! I need a doctor.

And now I feel like puking again. DAMN!!!

Isogashii.

Tsugi no komaasharu de toire ni ikou.

kyaaah!... literally means: I'll go to the bathroom when the next commercial comes on. Tsugi means "next", komaasharu means "commercial", toire means "toilet" and ikou the volitional form ofthe verb "iku means (to go)"... mada mada da ne.. I'm taking japanese classes next month, and im so excited. But sadly i'd be more busy than ever. tsk tsk tsk..

Bakamono

Wala namang interesanteng pangyayari ang nangyari ngayon, ganun pa rin.. nakutunganga sa harap ng monitor, nagbablog at higit sa lahat nakikipag-chat sa kung kani-kaninong tao. Yup, tao po ang ka chat ko at di po hayop. Bakit sinabi ko ba na hayop. Anyway, naiinis lang ako sa pabalik balik na tugtog na pinapatugtog ng isang babae na nasa harap ng monitor. Ay, Ako pala yun noh, e anong paki mo, e sa gusto kong ipost na ako yung babaeng yun. Hay, Mainit ang ulo ko ngayon, at ewan ko kung bakit. Ikaw alam mo? at tsaka kung kanino ako galit? wala lang, di ko pwedeng sabihin, tsaka wala ka naman sigurong mapapala kung sasabihin ko kung sino. Bakit, kaano-ano ba kita? At sino ka ba sa tingin mo?

ahihihih.. ang sama ko T_T patawad po.. baliw moment ko lang po to.

Ayokong magalit. Tsaka mahirap pag ako'y magalit at ginalit. Kaya as much as possible, nagpipigil ako. Tsaka mahirap ring magpigil pag galit ka.

I'm tired, bored and sleepy as the weather continuously cries over and over . My mind is drifting aimlessly as this boring day strives to be as boring as ever. Kahapon, kakatapos ko lang iset-up ang laptop ng uncle ko pati na rin ang bluetooth nya sa N70 nya. *sigh. though hindi naman nakakapagod mag set up, ang nakakapagod lang ay ang bumiyahe ng pagka layo layo para iset-up lang ang laptop. Then punta kami kahapon sa SSS, nagbabad ang uncle at mama ko sa loob ng government building for about an hour para magbayad ng tax ng OFW. Medyo na bored rin ako sa kakahintay sa kanila habang bitbit ko yung laptop, so i decided na lumabas na lang muna and pave my way out from that mundane establishment, then maghanap ng loading station for my globe sim, yep! my globe sim, nagamit ko rin kasi walang available na 25pesos na pang load for sun, 15 pesos lang naman e so hindi masakit sa bulsa. Then may nahanap akong isang japanese restaurant, unfortunately, close pa xa, open lang xa during lunch time and hapon, same ata schedule nung isang resto sa marfori. Di ko nakuha ang name ng resto kasi di ako marunong magbasa ng kanji characters pati na hiragana at katagana, well konti lang. Kita naman sa labas ang itsura ng resto, maliit lang sya, tsaka siguro masarap ang food dun.

*sigh.. wala lang.. ka chat ko ngayon si steven. Pinagmamalaki ang bagong OS nya na MAC. Cute yung OS nya. Eto oh :
yan po yung OS nya, cute no? pero mas cute linux ko. anyway, speaking of LINUX and OS. DiniDL ko yung Adobe, ayaw kasi mag open ng mga PDF files ko e. tsaka na ban ako sa gendou, kasi over flooding raw ako at nagkaka error everytime na may diniDL ako dahil sa lintik ko na DAP.

*sigh.. kung mayaman lang sana ako, di na sana ako kumakayod ng ganito, tsaka di naman ako ganun ka tanga na i-blame sa gobyerno o sa pangulo yung problema ko e, kasi di naman sila yung kumakayod para mabuhay ako kundi ang sarili ko lamang. Tsaka kung mayaman lang sana ako, e di nagbabakasyon na ako sa abroad, tsaka kung mayaman naman ako, baka pagnakawan naman ako ng masasamang tao, at di makatulog nang mahimbing pag gabi kasi baka may magtangka sa buhay ko at agawin ang kayamanan ko.

A Day at OKONOMIYAKI...

I spend hours of waiting for my uncle’s reply only to find out that the laptop im going to use is unavailable, so I checked out of the place then go immediately at claveria infront of city triangle near Ateneo de Davao university. That was eleven o’clock in the morning, haven’t eaten my breakfast and it’s just an hour before lunch, and hell I was really hungry plus I didn’t take my medicine. Pupunta pa sana ako sa Sasa, panacan eh kaso di pa nagtetext uncle ko e. so might as well pupunta na lang kami sa mansion para ihatid ang hiniram ko na manga [Genshiken and Tsubasa Chronicles] at panga ni Stephen, and lucky for us, nandun sila, so mingle at talk talk protion muna kami nila Stephen dun sa mansion, topic was from anime series na comedy to ecchi, then sa YGO cards to mga kanta para kay marcel at mudsi. Then nagugutom na talaga si marcel so we decided to go to okonomiyaki! And weee!!! After oh so many, months na di ako nakapunta ng okono at last, the long wait is over. OH MY OH MY OH MY!!!! My ice cream tempura madness is rising!!! Ang sarap talaga nun!! Then usap usap kami nila marcel at stphen about AAP and some other stuffs, then biglang dumating si jayjay from exam, mukhang exhausted and pretty much tired from doing something, parang galing sa marathon. Then dumating din si zhel, kasama si Dinah at si Lester, kakainggit ng sweetness nila. *sigh. Well anyway, hahaha, bully mode kami ni zhel, marcel at jayjay kay Stephen, este stephie sexy, nakakatawa siya, napipikon na talaga. Then napunta usapan namin sa frogs and roaches, ahehehehe [nervous laughter] ewwwywawk!! BUMALIKTAD BIGLA ANG TIYAN KO. So order pa ng isang ice cream tempura. Sa totoo lang gutom pa ako. So nag siuwian na lahat ng tao , naiwan lang sila Dinah at Lester, si marcel bumalik sa school para kumuha ng permit, si zhel umuwi na, kami naman ni jayjay, sabay kami papuntang SM para tumingin tingin ng Bluetooth device para bibilhin ko bukas para maiset up ko na ang Bluetooth ng laptop. Daan muna kami ng karl’s kasi bibili pa ako ng cookies and cream na cake na sa pag aakala ko ay P60 lang , e yun pala it cost around P80 na, wow! Ang bilis ng price increase mabuti na lang may dala akong pera nun. Then nag meet ulit kami ng mom ni jayjay, then sabi ko “tita alis na ako, cge po. Babye” then umalis na ako na para bang nahihilo. Di ko masydong makaya nagtaxi talaga ako. Dun muntik na akong dumuwal mabuti na lang may kendi at naibsan ng konti ang masama kong pakiramdam.

Natsukashii... yare yare.

*sigh.. i dunno why.. but i feel a bit sad. Siguro sa pagiging EMO ng mga tao ngayon sa YM. Pero ganun pa man, i don't know why, i dont know how but the feeling is so familiar, natsukashii!!!. Ayokong bumalik sa dati na pa emo emo, kahit sa YM dala ko ang pagiging EMO. Hindi naman siguro masama ang pagiging EMO, pero ang masakit lang di ka pinapansin ng taong nagtatanim ka ng tampo. Ganun ako noon, nilulubog ang sarili sa malulungkot na kanta at kadalasa'y umiiyak. kunwari'y kaya mo pero pag di ka nakaharap sa mga taong nakapalibot sayo, hayo't nandun ka sa iisang sulot, nagmumok-mok at umiiyak na para bang di mo malaman anong gagawin mo. Pero at last, im out from that gloomy environment, i guess i've learned not to expect too much from what i've been giving, i've learned my lesson. Pero i have nothing against anyone. Di ri ako galit, nagtatampo lang, siguro one day maiintindihan nyo rin ang ganung pakiramdam but for now enjoy life muna.

PS: Next time.. i'll post something in nihonggo para di nyo masyadong maintindihan.

kotoba

Half the world is composed of people who have something to say and can't,
and the other half who have nothing to say and keep on saying it.
- Robert Frost.

La Toscana

February 24 , 1 day before tita’s birthday, that was Saturday, nasa Ateneo de Davao University ako with jayjay, pinuntahan namin ang webteam and at last na meet ko na rin si steven, napatulala sya at ngumiti habang pinapakilala ako ni jayjay, medyo natatawa ako sa reaction niya kasi di ganun ugali niya pagka-chat ko xa. Maingay at madaldal xa pagdating sa YM, ewan ko ba kung bakit ganun yun kung bakit tumahimik bigla at di gaanong umiimik. Fast forward, sinamahan ko sa misa si jayjay, pero yun nga na late kami sa misa kasi dumaan pa kasi kami sa office pero okey lang at least na meet ko sila pero sa nanghihinyang din kasi na late tong kasama ko. Feeling uneasy and dizzy pinaupo ako malapit sa bench na malapit sa dingding at dun I tilt my head knowing na nahihilo pa rin ako [laagan man gud] then comes a time na natapos na ang misa, I was feeling kinda ok palapit na kami sa church at nagsisilabasan na mga tao mula sa loob ng simbahan when suddenly nakita ko parents ni jayjay, nakatayo few steps away from me si tita tetet [mommy niya] kasama si lola nene [lola niya], nineneyrebos kung baga akong nakatingin at sinalubong ng ngiti with a low bow si tita at si lola kasi dalawang beses pa lang kami nag meet ni tita tetet at lola nene 1st was sa memorial next is February 24 sa addu. Then nag smile lang si tita tetet habang nagsalita si lola nene: “ Pansin ko iha pumayat ka kesa nung una tayong nagkita.” Sabi ko naman: “ Naku! Salamat po!” [ning saka gud sa langit akong kalag ato na time] then biglang dumating si tito joby, dad ni jayjay; “ oh iha, nagpaalam ka na sa daddy mo?” sabi ko naman: “ opo tapos napo” then off we go para pumunta sa isang restaurant malapit sa Davao doctors hospital. Isang Italian restaurant [la Toscana] kasi dun icecelebrate ng advance birthday celebration ni tita tetet. Nauna na kami dun then sabi ni jayjay: “order kana jan, wag ka na mahiya sila magbabayad”

TO jayjay: “ jay, wala akong kamalay malay about Italian food maliban sa pasta at putanesca at lasagna.. ahehhehe.. kaya ikaw pinaorder ko, maliban lang sa isa.. yung tonkatsu sa Japanese, breaded pork naman sa English, pero in Italian, yung karugtong lang yung alam ko e.. yung MILINESE… yun lang yung naalala ko.

Matapos umorder dumating na yung hinihintay namin, ang pinsan ni jayjay si ate wey at ang asawa nya si kuya ricky [wow!! Memorize ko!], at si lola poy. Ayun, interview moment with kuya ricky habang si jayjay busy sa kabila, hahahah!! Gusto ko na talagang tumawa ng malakas. Tsaka napakasaya kausap si lola poy, pinagtutulungan nga xa ng buong pamilya e in a funny way.. after ng kain galore, alis na kami, then bago umuwi si lola poy , hinug and kiss niya ako. [wow! Kinikilig ako, I dunno why] tsaka inihatid ako ng parents ni jayjay sa mismong bahay namin.

Kung susumahin ang buong araw ko, isa lang masasabi ko. GRABEH ang saya, knowing na ngayon lang ulit ako naging masaya ng ganito and yet I feel so blessed knowing half of his family much more to that mas blessed ako at nakilala ko xa.

Far Away

a song that contains all of the things i wanted to say to you.

http://http://blog.orgday.org/2006/05/24/my-sassy-girl/

"Far Away"

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

'Cause you know

you know, you know

[CHORUS]

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming

you'll be with me

and you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask

Last chance for one last dance

'Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it allI'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

'Cause you know,you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know

I wanted

I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

So keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Nang minsan ako'y nagising

Alas Dos na ng umaga ng ako'y nagising, naramdaman ko ang lamig ng hangin na bumabalot sa buo kong katawan, pilit kong ibinukas ang tinatamlay kong mga mata upang tignan ang mga bagay bagay na nakapaligid sa akin, ngunit dala na rin ng aking katamaran ito'y ipinikit ko na lamang at bumalik sa aking pagkatulog. Ngunit may isang malakas na tinig ang biglang bumulalas sa aking tenga, na pakunwari pa na ako't di ko narinig, nangatog ang buo kong katawan sa sobrang takot na wari ba'y may tumitingin sa akin, nararamdaman ko ang kandong nito sa aking dibdib, isang maliit na bagay na gumagalaw sa aking dibdib, ako'y nangamba at binalutan ng nginig at nagmadaling bumangon papunta sa sulok ng kwarto.

Hinanap ko ang pintuan ngunit di ko ito mahanap, sapagkat napakadilim kwarto at ang nag-iisa lang ang pintuan palabas. Binabalot na ako ng takot, lumalamig na ang paligid, tumataas na ang tensyon, nanginginig na ang aking katawan, ni hindi ko maibukas ang aking bunganga upang humingi ng saklolo, may isang bagay akong nakita na ikinasindak ko, isang maliit na bagay na wair'y ang mga nito'y nakatitig sa akin, na para bang kakainin ako ng buo, napako ako sa aking kinalalagyan, at wari bang wala na akong pag-asa na makatakas sa uhaw na matang iyon. Nang biglang may pumasok sa kwarto ko, pinindot ang switch ng ilaw at hinanap ang tuta niya. Na sa pagkatakot ko'y tinapunan ko ng arinola na sa pasasalamat ko'y walang lamang wiwi.

Napatanong siya " Bat parang nakakita ka ng multo?" habang papalapit xa sa tuta na hinahanap na sa mga panahong yon ay naka-upo lamang sa aking harapan at ako'y pinagmamasdan na sa pag aakala kong tiyanak.


*sigh. wala lang akong magawa e. kaya gumagawa ako ng entry ngayon. Hope you Like it. Medyo Korni pero wala lang. Dadaan daan lang naman ako sa blog ko e. Ano sa tingin mo ang entry na to? Critic mo.

RANTING

(PAALALA: Ang entry na ito ay puno ng reklamo reklamo reklamo at walang kamatayang reklamo)

may tao bang di nag rereklamo? WALA! at kung wala kang keme sa pinapagawa sayo, timang ka! tuod! di ako ganyan, di ako tuod na di nakararamdam ng sakit, hiya at pagkapagod sa araw na araw na pagtratrabaho, napapabayaan ko na nga ang sarili ko for the sake of working para magkapera tayo pa ang napapagalitan. Ang hirap pero dapat maging matibay, eh paano naman kaya kasi e, may kasama akong nagpapadala sa agos ng panahon, e siya naman tong napakatagal dito siya pa tong nagiging marupok, minsan nga napapagalitan ako dahil sa kanya, pinagbibintangan pa ako sa mga nawawalang bagay. And like!!

HELLO!!! DI KO PINAPAKIALAM ANG HINDI KO GAMIT at kung ano man yan
maliban na lang kung ako'y inutusan na hawakan o itago ang isang bagay, malay
ko ba!! di ako tanungan ng nawawalang gamit!!

Vday , Chinese New Year and what's next?

(note: vernacular entry)

VDAY - February 14, 2007
kyaa!!! VDay daw? ano yan lamay? yah. lamay nga. May lamay sa MTS. Pumunta kami ng MTS mga 10pm marami masyado tao ang dami ko nga nakita dun e na kakilala ko, nasa may sulok ako that time watching some couples na sobrang sweet na nilalanggam na ata, wala lang staring at them makes me feel so gloomy so harap na lang ako sa laptop. Kasama ko pinsan ko that time na ka date naman gf niya, as usuall, same scene rin yung nakita ko. Nakakaumay pero nakakainggit, sabi ko "wow! record na to ha, another vday sucks". Di na bago sa pandinig ko. Then comes a message saying " happy valentines day", nabuhayan ako, at least man lang nabuhayan ako, pero saglit lang. So yun, tambay lang sa MTS ng mga ilang oras. from 10pm to 2am. Then uwi sa bahay, then tulog. Nothing special. i huess.

CHINESE NEW YEAR - Kong hei fat choi
Year of the Pig ika nga ng marami, kaya alagaan sarili para di magkasakit, nasa bahay kami ng pinsan ko that time nagpaka baboy, hahaha! baboy nga. Tapos kain ng tikoy. then after 12am mga 1am, uwi agad kami. Same din yung nangyari sa New Year, though a bit boring. Di kasi maka relate mga kausap ko sa text that time e. halos 'ah" at "aw" lang yung nirereply.

Feb.21, 2007
Birthday ng bro ko. Si trick. Patai.. nakalimutan ko bilihin gift niya. nagpapabili pa naman yun ng pabango. Axe vice raw. hanap ako ng paraan wala pa kasing sweldo e.

medyo tinatamad ako maglagay ng entry e, nakakatamad ang araw na to, kahapon pumunta ako ng SM para bumili ng bagong sim sa sun, chineck ko latest model ng phone nila ok rin naman ang presyo pero ok sana kung mas mura pa, medyo nangunguripot kasi uncle ko e. Pag nasadya naman ng malas o, malas talaga. Pero ok lang, just looked at the brighter side na lang, ika nga "be optimistic."

Nokia 7370 L'AMOUR COLLECTION

The phone im dying to buy. NOKIA 7370 L'AMOUR COLLECTION so elegant so sophisticated and a head-turner goddess. I'm so gonna buy this one if not in going to ask my uncle to buy this for me. With this hottie in a warm amber color, leather-inspired accents, the elegantly etched metal surfaces and the innovative swivel design really gives a blow. I really love the it's features.

Key Features

• 180-degree swivel with ergonomic tilt
• Triband
• 1.3 negapixel camera with full-screen landscape camera mode
• black and white, sepia and negative camera taking features
• 2.0" Display Screen with 100% active area, up to 262k colour
• FM Stereo Radio with integrated 3D Stereo Speakers
• Video ringinig tones
• Visual Radio
  

Full Specifications

Operating Frequency

• Triband GSM 900/1800/1900

Dimensions

• Volume: 73 cc
• Weight: 104 g
• Length: 88 mm
• Width: 43 mm
• Thickness (max) : 23 mm

Display

• 262K color QVGA 240 x 320 pixels display

User Interface

• Latest Series 40 user interface
• 5-way scroll key, 2 soft keys, send and end keys, Camera Key, Volume/Zoom key
• Dedicated key for camera application

Imaging

• 1.3 megapixel camera, with full-screen landscape camera mode
• Black and white, sepai and negative camera taking features
• Video Recorder
• Video player
• image Formats Support: JPEG, GIF, EXIF, WBMP, BMP, MBM, PNG
• MPEG video playback and streamlining

Multimedia

• Visual Radio: Listen to music and interact with your favorite radio stations
• Digital Music supported for the following media type: MP3, AMR. MIDI
• Playback for the following video formats: H.263 video, MPEG-4
• FM stereo radio with integrated 3D stereo speakers
• Integrated music player for MP3/AAC?M4A formats

Memory Functions

• 10 MB built-in memory

Messaging

• Multimedia messaging: MMS for creating, receiving, editing, and sending videos and pictures with AMR video clips.
• Email: Supports SMTP, POP3, IMAP4, and APOP protocols. Support for attachments (view jpeg, 3gp, MP3, .ppt, .doc, .xls, and .pgf flies)
• Text Messaging: Supports concatenated SMS, picture messanging, SMS distribution list
• Pre-enhanced contacts: Check the status of your friends before you call them.

Game

• Phantom Spider Evolution

Java™ Applications

• Java™ MIDP 2.0
• Visual Radio, World clock, Size converter, Converter, E-mail 3

Ringing Tones

• Supported file formats: Video ringing tones, MP3, AAC, 64-chord/voice polyphonic MIDI ringing tones

Connectivity

• Pop-Port™ interface to USB
• Bluetooth
• Remote over-the-air (OTA) synchronization with SyncML
• Local synchronization with PC using PC Suite
• Direct printing of digital pictures to PictBridge-compliant printers via USB cable

Browsing

• WAP* 2.0 xHTML/HTML multimode browser
• OMA Digital DRM 1.0

Data Transfer

• EDGE*: Class B, multislot class 10
• GPRS: Class B, multislot class 10
• HSCSD (High-Speed Circuit-Switched Data)

Digital Services

• Video streaming services
• Exclusive UI themes

Voice Features

• Voice dialing
• Voice recorder
• Integrated handsfree speaker

Sales Package Contents

• Nokia 7370 Phone
• Nokia Battery BL-4B
• Nokia Standard Charger AC-3
• Nokia Fashion Stereo Headset
• Nokia 7370 Phone Fashion Quick User Guide
• Nokia 7370 Phone General User Guide
• Nokia 7370 Phone Fashion Pouch
• Nokia 7370 Phone Fashion Strap
  

though it's kinda expensive i'd still wish to have this phone and call it mine, hmm.. a phone like this as an advance gift for my debut would be nice .

February 7, 2007 wednesday 03:37pm

Been working late, though sometimes I get some of my irregular day offs which normally I prefer to have a good sleep than go shopping. I missed many of AAP’s meetings but I do not regret missing one coz im still helping them in any means possible. Guess I’ll be back by the time I get to finished some unfinished business and hopefully as soon as possible like before the proper event. Moreover, before I forgot, a week and days to go before Chinese New Year. In addition, guess what, no fried chicken! Like hell!

How I wish there be more sumptuous meal to be serve. Can’t wait to dig my mouth on some cookies and cream cakes, hotdogs with mallows, fresh veggies in pita, mouth-craving delights, ice cream, spaghetti, and the all time favourite, LECHON BABOY! *evil grin*

So Unpredictable

Turns out to be the worse day of my life before the Chinese New Year. First, my best friend went to my house at exactly 10 am just as the moment as I woke up. Never brushed my teeth and im still wearing my pajamas but she never minds instead she was shocked from the moment she entered my room. “What the hell had happened to you? What did you do?” as she continues to be stunned and be petrified from her position. Then I said “what? Have seen a ghost before with this face? then my mom entered the room and said. “ayaw na ka shock mir, mag lain na sad buot ana. Ayaw na lang ug react?”, “ngano diay te? Nganong ingon ana man iyang *****? “long story iha, long story.” She’s been bugging me the whole day about it. I was a bit annoyed. Well, it’s a normal reaction for her. Second, I opened my account today, and was hell shock about the mail, it was from my former classmate in elementary, whoa! Ancient years had passed and it was to sudden for her to drop a message. She’s in Canada right now and she is coming back home. Hurray! Can’t wait to see her and she’s bringing her boyfriend. What a couple. And last was this guy, hell, it’s been a year since the last time we’ve seen each other, he just called about 15 minutes ago asking me if were ok. Too late to asked. Since when was the last time I heard his whereabouts? Ah! That was a year ago. Anyway, got to go. Need to cook for lunch.

The Conference

What a day, and I am still wide-awake. My mom told me to go to sleep. In addition, I said “in an hour ma.” im getting used to it. Been to a yahoo conference all the time and we were like talking too much stuff that one has to put a topic. Different versions came up and some were asking questions, well in that case that was I asking so many questions. Moreover, this was the day of yet another conversation with them. It was so funny; people were like laughing and laughing about anything. In addition, starting a topic, that is excessively sensitive. Whew! Thank god, I get a hell out of there. It is getting deeper and deeper. Nonetheless, I had a great time laughing. At least I enjoyed a lot, smiled a lot, and laughed a lot today. Not worrying about my worries and for instance I would like to have to live a day or so like this for crying out loud. It was a bit quite of the bitten track when somebody knocks on the door three times and like when I opened it, no one was there. So I said to myself. “He did pay a visit; maybe I should visit him tomorrow.” I was a bit scared at first but I must remain calm and brave for it will go to be a long day ahead.


On the other side, I had a hard time customizing my friendster page, not in the mood lately and it rather bores me a lot. So I switched back to “gravity” a sad song forwarded to me by a close friend. Its 2:40 and im feeling a bit sleepy now.

WHAT!! nani???

??? you want me to explain what the hell is SHP?? i already explained it and like all three of them were too pushy, including marcel. And now. James, on YM asking me again what is SHP. *sigh. TOMARE!!! so embarassing. i shouldn't be the one explaining it.

12:10am

im still awake. Never an issue. My room is now filled with stupid mosquitoes biting me freely. Wait a minute. Where the hell did that spray go?.. ah!! there you are.. find you.. im catching up a cold again, and like sneezing the whole day, gross. Oh well, it's still a mundane-oh-so-typical-day nothing so great had happened, fetch here, move it here, clean it there,tsk. Moreover, i've been thinking a lot lately,random thoughts about what will happen next if i did this and say that. BOOM!!! an explosion follows. Explosion of thoughts, sudden thoughts maybe because im so damn listening to low music. Guess i'll just have to stop it and be busy with something else. Already am busy.

Anyway... i'm kinda tired, but i have to finish my brother's project for tomorrow and yes it was such a short notice he asked me to do it for him. *sigh.


it's hard pretending when you know your not ok.

X-Day

Disclaimer: i don't own this manga not even this review so don't sue me for that. Courtesy of Gina posted on August 2004.

Since the Columbine high school shootings of August 29th, 1999, the increase of high school violence has been brought into the view of the public eye. Documentaries, books, and articles have all been written about these sorts of incidents, and now Setona Mizushiro tackles the sensitive issue in her short manga series, X-Day.

Rika Saginuma is fed up with life. Once a former track star, an injury has forced her off the team. She has been overwhelmed with homework, papers, and exams, plus her boyfriend recently dumped her. One day, she finds a school chat room while on the web and decides to check it out. Inside are people complaining about the many stresses of school, so Rika fits right in. Things begin to heat up, as three other individuals, along with Rika, begin to devise a plan. Rika had mentioned that she just wanted the school to disappear, so their goal becomes simple: blow up the school. The day they plan to blow it up becomes known as X-Day, and the countdown begins.


On the surface, X-Day seems like another typical story about high school drama, since it talks about relationship problems and social pressures. Sure it contains some of the stereotypical elements needed in a story about high school drama, but X-Day is far from typical. This dialogue driven story focuses on the relationship between four very different people, and how they save each other from themselves. What separates X-Day from other manga is its characters. They are four individuals, not all naïve teenage girls that are constantly in the middle of relationship trouble. Perhaps the most unique character of the foursome, is the biology teacher named Jangalian. Mizushiro portrays both sides of the story, and shows us that teachers can be cracking under the same pressures as their students.

A common theme found in X-Day is that things are not always what they seem. One way Mizushiro does this is by offering readers a different view into the lives of others; showing how even the most "popular people" can feel lonely, and that teenage girls are not the only people who suffer from the pressures of high school life. It shows a rare side of people, exposing the humanity of each character, and tries to construct a reason behind many of the things that many people originally overlook. The X-Day manga is written in the authentic manga style, reading right-to-left. The panels are clear to make out, and not cluttered by extraneous images. As long as you’re accustomed with reading right-to-left, then you shouldn’t encounter any confusion or problems while flipping through this manga. The sound effects remain in their original Japanese characters, but that doesn’t take anything away from the reading experience. The backgrounds are lacking detail, but this is to place more emphasis on the characters and their feelings, since that is what is making the story progress.X-Day is a critical series that deserves to be looked into.

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For a short series of only two volumes in length, X-Day certainly packs a punch, and will definitely prove to be worth the money. To get even more bang for your buck, at the end of the second volume, there is a short fable entitled “The Last Supper”, which is a heart-wrenching tale of loyalty and friendship. X-Day turns out to be a satisfying manga that touches upon an issue that many authors tend to shy away from, and a story that any person, not only students, but adults or teachers as well, can relate to.

My Mundane Day

Yesterday, I bought two volumes of manga at the national bookstore there I came across with an AAP member named Haydara. At first, I was a bit hesitant to say hi or hello, because I made a promise to myself that I will only show myself to those when im ready guess it looks like you can never out ran destiny from here and there. Faith decided to play me as if she never intended too. From there we had a little chitchat as I dig over those piles of mangas [graphic novel]. Setona Mizushiro titled “X-Day” wrote it. A story about a senior student Rika who is seriously stressed out with more homework’s, exams, and papers than she can't handle and was recently dumped by her boyfriend. In other words, LIFE SUCKS! That is it. I Don’t want to spoil the fun so you better buy a copy of it and yeah this was featured in www.tokyopop.com.


*sigh nothing interesting happens today except for a bunch of people I met during the manga panic. Whom I had a great time talking about anime stuffs manga reviews and different genre of anime. I went home by 9pm. Then sleep around 3am thinking what will happen next day, definitely today. I keep on thinking about him. Moreover, it is really getting harder and harder. As I see stuffs and hear, stuffs that can make me remember about him. Nothing more to say I guess.

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The Profoundness of Silence

Withdrawing, "stonewalling," and pouting in silence are ways some people handle anger. Such a silence can be pulsating with bad feelings and elicit anger on the part of the other person. While it's almost never an indication of indifference, silence can indicate that the other person is having negative emotions. When we experience anger, fear, or embarrassment, our thinking brain shuts down. We sit there fuming, unable to speak; enraged and unable to find words; afraid and scared speechless. Some people are "flooded" with these emotions, and unable to respond. Sometimes when we're listening to someone else, we hear something that leaves us speechless because it really goes beyond words. Listening to someone talk about a dreadful trauma they've endured, or a beautiful, almost-sacred interaction with another human being or a description of an awesome natural event such as a sunset or a volcano eruption is examples. Somehow when we listen to such things, the ordinary "Oh" and "Wow" and "That's awesome" don't seem enough, and so we fall silent. When you are profoundly listening to someone, you create an open space for them to talk into that's almost palpable. Good listeners know how to do this, and it can be learned. It's an openness that you transmit through nonverbal means. When we're really tuning in to how the other person feels, we're listening more to the tone of their voice; cadence and speed rather than the actual words, so reply with words may not be the most appropriate response. Sometimes sounds are more attuned ... a murmur, a sigh, sucking in the breath in shock, soothing sounds, clucking (tsk tsk), or shaking the head and going uh, uh, uh.

There are long roads to follow as it’s growing longer and longer… the spaces between those boarders are now getting narrow. I see him sleeping in silence so quietly, as I continue to reach deep within him. But still the spaces hinder me from coming nearer. The pain cripples as hard as it can, tormenting every inch of me. People asked me why?
Why do I still continue living like this that for a fact I keep on hurting myself inch by inch? And why do I still continue to sound as mushy as before?

I shut myself up in silence, pretending nothing had happened. I hope it will not go on like this forever. Setting as temporarily lukewarm makes me feel uneasy and weary if you know what I mean. And if that’s what his been trying to imply as I see fit.